And so the thing of it was to never give Willoughby a voice… to let him only say five words: “I don’t want to die…” and never let anyone know what he was thinking about…
but in this version… which is all now for you backwards… and for me erratic and tonally confused… back story if not on Willoughby than on me seems okay… I was crawling through suburban streets raising money door to door and standing in blocking formation in City streets begging money for John Kerry to loose with (though we didn’t know it at the time… though we feared it) and I was always saying to myself, “I don’t want to die” and so I became intrested in a character with that basic motivation and that basic dialogue… and it is odd now a year later to be working on this thing and feel it makes no sense to me.
I’d be in the winter dark streets of New Jersey towns telling myself small snippets of Willoughby and Clark and I… and a year later I don’t know if it means the same thing and I don’t know what I’m saying and half the time… well I do want to die. How do we save this situation…? Where is this story going?